bigger isn't always easier

I hate to complain. As much as it seems like I like it I don't. I feel like there's been a lot to complain about lately and I've been holding it in. Now my back hurts. As if all the stuff I need to get out is hiding out in my shoulders and neck. It's awesome. And by awesome I mean it sucks.

Part of me wishes that I could go back to being ignorant, to being how I've always been and not challenging myself. It's really hard to make positive changes when the way you've been is justifiable and comfortable. The hardest part is making those changes while everyone around you stays the same. You start to look at them all in a different way and reevaluate your friendships based on what they bring to the table. Sadly, in most cases they bring their baggage and negativity because that's what friends are for right? It's a hard line to walk.

So how to I keep to the positive changes and save my back from aching? I don't know.